Next chemo is 1 week from yesterday

The thought of it makes me kind of sick.  I am back to feeling pretty much back to normal and knowing that this time next week I'll just have finished having that poison put in my body makes me feel ill.  But I know it's a necessary evil to beat cancer.  And at least now I know when to expect my bad days and I also know it doesn't last forever!

The steristrips came off on my port the other day.  The stitch the surgeon used to close the little sore up top is still hanging in there. I wish it'd fall out because it looks like a weird scab LOL  It feels SO weird but it's no longer super sore, although it does hurt when one of the twins head butts it.

My hair is still pretty it's usual thickness, although my scalp is really tender, which I read is normal before losing hair.  I have noticed a bit more than normal coming out today, but nothing shocking.  I'm guessing from here on out, any extra time with my hair is a blessing since I've been told by all the professionals that it should have started coming out by now.  I'm pretty sure the big shave is coming within the week.


The kids are doing well and are being pretty open with asking me questions.  I keep teasing Emeline that I need her to cut her hair so I can have it made into a wig.  Sweet girl did ask how short she'd have to cut it...so maybe she at least considered it?  I do need to go wig shopping, but I'm not sure where to go.  I guess just google "wig shops near Columbia".  I don't really plan to wear a wig all that often, but I will need a "going out" wig, maybe something fancy and fun.

Our little Mandy is starting to settle in and explore the house.  She now lets us pet her on the stairs but acts like she's never seen us if we try to pet her in the living room LOL  She's super comfy in our room though and even let me clip her nails the other day.  Isn't she adorable?

These hips don't lie....

And today they are saying, "ouch!".  Everytime I think that today is going to be a normal day, I wake up with a different side effect of chemo or neulasta.  Yesterday it was a killer headache and the ever present touch of nausea.

The indigestion?  The insomnia?  What the heck?  It seems chemo has a lot of the same symptoms as late pregnancy- who knew?

I had my blood count done on Wed, exactly a week after chemo.  The PA said my numbers look good so I can proceed with my normal life.  He did give me a prescription for a steroid to take for a couple of days after my next round, to see if that helps with the nausea.
Here is my bloodwork from right before chemo and then a week after.  The nurse highlighted the important things on the first bloodwork.  It's interesting to see how much my white blood cells (NEUT are the mature, important ones) dropped, but are still in the good range.

I meant to ask him when I can expect to get my genetic testing results back.  it's been 3 weeks since they took blood for that.  I hope it comes back soon and everything is negative.  I really don't want to have to worry about cancer coming back or my kids being more susceptible.  Hopefully I'll hear soon.

Now I'm just plugging along until my next chemo on Feb 23rd.  In the meantime, I expect to start losing my hair by Mon/Tues which means shaving it soon after.

I hope I'm not coming off as complaining or whining, I'm just trying to be really honest and open about this process for me.  I knew it wasn't going to be easy, but it's honestly kicking my ass a little harder than I thought it would.  But, I will get through this!

I have to quick send a shout out to Ray's co-workers & my friends who have been generously making delicious meals for us.  It's really great not to have to worry about what's for dinner! My moms of multiples group has offered to do a meal train as well, and I'll be contacting them soon with dates when I feel like we'll need them the most. I've also had friends make me chemo hats and I'm so happy to wear something that was made with love <3  Thanks Melanie & Kellie! Thanks to everyone who's so graciously supporting us!

Chemo is no joke

I'm not gonna lie, the last 2 days were pretty rough.  My bones ached, my head hurt, I felt like I was coming down with something, I was nauseated and the strangest thing, my "bad knee" (that I had surgery on when I was 15) was killing me.  I've been sleeping really poorly too, waking up every couple hours or more, even with the help of Ambien.

Luckily I woke up feeling much better today.  I haven't had to take any pain meds or anti-nausea drugs, I'm not bone-tired and I feel almost normal.  My chest is finally feeling a bit better after the port placement surgery.  I think I'm hitting an upswing.

So far my hair is still hanging in there, but the nurse said it'll be falling out within 2 weeks.  We'll see when it actually gets bad enough that I feel the need to shave it.  I've had a few people tell me that their friend's neighbor's daughter's cousin's teacher's aunt didn't lose their hair during chemo, but I'm ready to go ahead and bid mine goodbye when it's time.  At this point, I really dislike this haircut anyway, so although I won't be happy to see it go, I won't be as sad had I not cut it this short LOL  

I have my next appointment on Wed, when they'll take blood and see how my white blood cells are doing.  Hopefully they look good and all will be ready for my next chemo appt on Feb 23rd.  I'm hoping I just start feeling stronger and stronger until then!

So far, so good

Today is the start of day 2 after my first chemo.  Yesterday I felt pretty good, just soreness from the port & a small headache that motrin took care of.  I was a little tired, but because I'd gone to bed at about 830 the night before, with an ambien, I felt pretty rested when I got up!  I think the steroids they gave me really helped me feel peppy and I enjoyed a morning with good friends at a playdate & lunch at chick-fila.  I took a short nap (maybe 40min) in the afternoon and felt well enough to take Audacity to training outside in the cold.

I was pretty worn out after training so went straight to bed, but after falling asleep for less than an hour, I woke and couldn't fall back asleep.  so I ended up taking an ambien around 1:30am.  This morning I'm a little tired and feeling just the slightest bit of nausea.  Not enough to feel like I need to take anything though.  I need to call the nurse to ask her about taking ambien nightly and also about whether or not I can keep my dentist appt this afternoon.

Here are a few pictures from Wed- my port is under that big white bandage.  The tube in my vein runs up to where that little red dot is, then it was turned and run down a vein that goes in the middle of my chest.

I thought the port would have some sort of tubing sticking out or something, but it was actually put in a pocket they created under my skin.  Here's basically what it looks like on the inside:  

weird, right?  

After chemo the nurse put on my neulasta "patch"- I put that in quotes because it felt more like a tag that they put on clothes to keep them from being stolen LOL  It was big and awkward & I was happy to take it off once it dispensed the medicine at around 4pm yesterday.  Here's what that thing looks like:

I was told it'd go off around 4pm yesterday but I forgot until I was sitting in Everett's doctor's office with him (for a regular checkup) and she asked if that was me beeping.  It was the patch saying it was about to start LOL  

The neulasta may cause bone ache because it's job is to increase white blood cell production and that happens in the bone marrow, which can cause them to ache.  So far, so good though.  

So far I've still been able to get in my morning coffee so I think I can stay strong as long as I can have my coffee LOL  

The kids are being really great and making sure I'm feeling okay.  I'm blessed to have wonderful friends who helped me with the twins yesterday.  It's the little things, like my friend Jill offering to take them off my hands for the morning, although I was feeling well enough to go too.  And Corinne staying with me in the bathroom after they went potty so she could hold them up to help them wash their hands.  Those are little things that people don't realize I'll need help with (I can't do any heavy lifting for the next 10 days or so because of the port surgery).  I'm so glad to have such wonderful people to help and support me throughout this journey.  Ya'll will never know how much it means to us!   We appreciate every note, prayer, offer of help & meal that we've received.  

1 down, 15 to go! (maybe)

Ray and I got to the hospital bright and early to have my port put in.  Here I was just before they took me back:

The port placement was weird.  They told me they were going to put me in 'twilight sleep' but I figured I'd still be pretty out of it.  Nope.  they draped a blue sterile sheet over me, except for the hole where they were working in my chest (even over my head!), put some pain meds in my IV then some sedative and then he went to work.  He use a local numbing agent before cutting in to me, but i definitely felt those initial needles.  It was pretty surreal.  It took about 40 min, but it didn't really seem that long.  I saw the xray of the port and the tube thingy they put in my veins- weird!  The area is now pretty sore and i can feel the tube in my veins.  I'm not supposed to lift anything heavy for the next week or 2.  Sorry, toddler twins, mommy can't pick you up for awhile!

We were done by 10am so we went straight to the Oncologist to start chemo.  I got the low down from the super nice nurse (shout out to Nikki!), she ran some bloodwork, which I am proud to announce that I scored well on.

I hadn't even studied.  I'm hoping I score as well at my next chemo appt.

I got a lovely cocktail of pre-chemo drugs through the port before getting the dreaded chemo.  The cocktail consisted of steriods, anti-nausea & 1 other drug.  then another bag of a different anti-nausea drug, the combo should last up to 5 days & I only need to take the prescriptions they gave me when I have breakthrough nausea or after the IV drugs wear off.

Here I am getting the first of my 2 chemo drugs- they call it the red devil, although my nurse called it kool-aid.  It didn't make me feel any differently, although with the 2nd drug I got a funny taste in my mouth (may have been perceived? ).

Finally my nurse put on my Neulasta patch- it's pretty cool, she loaded it with the drug, then put it on my arm.  It beeped for a few seconds and then *snap* i felt the little tube go into my skin.  Tomorrow at 4pm the meds will start flowing until they are gone 45min later.  Very cool, eh?  The neulasta is to help my body regrow white blood cells.

All in all, it wasn't a terrible day.  I did notice that when I signed consent for the chemo, the paperwork said 4 rounds of AC, 2 weeks apart, followed by 12 rounds of T, given weekly.  So instead of it being 8 total rounds in 16 weeks, it'll end up being 15 rounds in 20 weeks.  I need to check with my oncologist about this, the nurse just said that the 12 round T was standard.

Emeline started a new grading period today and she's taking health.  She had to fill out some paperwork that I also had to sign.  I quick snapped this pic while she wasn't looking, but it totally warmed my heart <3  This girl is so amazing, I don't know what we did to deserve her!

I go back next wed to have my cell counts checked and instead of doing chemo again the following wed, we decided to push it to Tuesday Feb 23 because my oncologist isn't there on Wed & we considered doing it on Thursday, but my nurse isn't there on Thursdays (and we really did like her).  So she said it was fine to push it forward a little bit.  I'll keep everyone posted on how I'm feeling and how everyone here is doing.  Thanks for following along.

Tomorrow our journey officially begins

Port placement at 8am then chemo around 11am.  I can do this.  I can do this.  I will do this!

I saw this posted on a friend's fb page and thought it could apply to me too.  As many moves and such that we've dealt with, this is just another challenge to tackle!

Chemo changes- ugh

So, Ray finally got ahold of someone in my oncology office.  Everything was good to go for chemo tomorrow, but when the nurse called to change my port placement from wed to late the following week, she found out that the doc is really backed up and won't be able to do it before my 2nd chemo appointment.  So it was suggested that I keep wed's port placement appointment then roll right into chemo directly after.

Luckily my mom is able to come up to watch the twins all day Wed, but I can't say I'm looking forward to a long day at the hospital/oncologist office on Wed.  I have to be put into 'twilight sleep' for the port placement so I'm not sure how great I'll feel to have chemo right after.  I guess I can always take a nap while I'm getting the chemo.

Wish me luck!