I kind of can't believe it's finally scheduled. It seems like just yesterday we had the consult with the plastic surgeon and he said to call about 3 months out to start the scheduling process. It's really all coming together!
In other news, I finally returned to the gym this morning. Woot! I went in with guns a blazin' and did a R.I.P.P.E.D class. As anyone familiar with this class knows, it's a toughie! Although I had to do a lot of modification (you'd be surprised how much chemo and inactivity can take from a body!), I had a lot of fun and it was good to be back. I've been trying to eat better since June 1st and although I haven't been perfect, I've been doing pretty well. My goal is to lose as much of this chemo weight as I can before surgery.
But...at the same time, I'm trying to allow myself some Grace. As someone reminded me this morning (thanks Maria!), I need to allow myself Grace through this experience. I gained over 20lbs while getting through chemo. Could I have gained less? Maybe. But I did (and ate!) what I needed to get me through and you know what? That's okay. I could have maybe eaten more salads and less chocolate. But the most important thing is that I made it through.
I have a feeling someday I'm going to look back and really wonder how the heck I did it. 5 kids, the 2 youngest being 3 year old very active twins (who aren't even in preschool, yikes!), continuing with my dog training (which, I have to admit, is my me time and I wouldn't give it up unless I absolutely have to) & trying to keep some semblance of normalcy at home...it wasn't pretty, but i did it.
Some days were pretty crappy. Some days I felt like giving up. Some days were amazing. Some days I cried. Most days I laughed. I thank God for every one of those days. Having cancer has helped me to really realize what's important in life. Family & friends. And chocolate. Definitely chocolate.
You are a rockstar. XO your fellow chocolate loving friend :)
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