First Taxol down, 3 to go

Yesterday was my first Taxol infusion.  It was a pretty long day because they had to start the infusion super slowly to make sure I didn't have a reaction.  Luckily I usually don't have an issue with new meds, so she was able to speed it up without any problems.  Today I'm just super tired.  Woke up feeling okay and ran errands with the twins this morning (which in itself is exhausting LOL) but by the time I put them down for quiet time (they don't really nap anymore), I fell into my bed and napped for a solid 2 hours but woke up just as tired.  I got up anyway and did some minor housework (a little laundry) and still plan to go to dog training tonight.  The NP said getting out and walking really helps with the tiredness, so hanging out with the dog people and doing some training fits the bill.  Plus it gets me a little break from these adorable little ankle biters that have been trying to drive me to the crazy today!
I got a call from my plastic surgeon's office today with a tentative surgery date of July 8th.  I'm glad that we're closer to a date, but I can't say I'm thrilled either.  I made the decision right away that I wanted to be aggressive with the surgery, but I'm still pretty freaked out about it.  Most people I talk to say they'd do exactly the same as I'm doing & I've always said the same, but it's still hard to actually say goodbye to this part of my body.  The part that first made me feel and look like a woman, that nourished all 5 of my children- I nursed them for a total of 8 years (if you don't count the twins tandemly)!  I know it's the right thing to do for me though so I'm going to be strong and maybe throw a little "goodbye to my boobs!" party before surgery LOL
I'm sure I'll be fine once we get to that portion of this journey.  The emotional part has really been a lot harder than I expected.  I had the initial very emotional time before I knew much about my stage and thought about the possibility of not being here for the kids, but once we found out that I have "best case scenario" breast cancer, I thought the emotions wouldn't be so high.  But they've worn me down more than I expected.  I'm keeping my head up though and am happy that we've made it this far!  Soon this chemo portion will be behind me and we'll be on to the next obstacle- the last obstacle!

I've decided to start ordering/collecting cancer tshirts to wear throughout the rest of my journey.  I ordered 4 yesterday!  I actually designed 2 of them myself (hoping they turn out) and then got these two from another site:

I couldn't really resist the first one LOL  I think I'll make myself a lap quilt with the t shirts once I'm done wearing them.  I'm hoping to have another made with my last chemo day date on it :D