General thoughts and specific complaints

The days following Chemo #2 weren't as intense as those after chemo #1, but seem to have lasted longer.  The steroids that I was given to take on days 1-3 after chemo really made a huge difference in my energy, to the point that I was even a little wired on Friday, which I anticipated to be my hardest day.  That said, the nausea seems to be worst and the meds aren't really taking care of it like I feel like they should.  I'm seeing the PA named Adam tomorrow (why do PA's always have to go by their first name?!) and I'm going to tell him about the nausea.  Today is day #6 after chemo and I'm feeling a lot less tired with just a touch of nausea but still not "normal".  I think last time I was feeling back to normal a bit sooner.  

In other news, as much as the steroids are helping how I feel, they made me super hungry & I'm putting on weight at an alarming rate.  I know, I know, my first priority is to fight this, but at the same time, I'm still a woman and gaining weight is really playing mind games with me.  I'm trying hard not to feel bad about how I look, but well, did I mention I'm still a woman?  2016 was supposed to be my year- my goal was to be smokin' hot for a pretty big birthday in May but I guess it'll just have to wait until next year.  Bald & fat is totally hot, right?! 

So my goal right now is to not let the weight gain bother me.  If you see me in a moo-moo in the grocery store, you can just compliment me on my hat :P  

Speaking of hats, the hair that I have left is coming out pretty quickly.  My head is super splotchy so I look like I have some sort of mange.  My scalp is still kind of irritated so I'm going hatless at home, but I won't scare the general public by going out without a hat.  I've added a photo below of what's going on with my "hair" right now. 

You're welcome, general public, for not subjecting you to staring at the back of this in the grocery line!

I'm still going pretty strong over here and trying to keep my sense of humor.  Can you tell?  Maybe Wed I'll feel good enough to take my happy ass to the gym and get some time on the treadmill and away from these darling toddler twins who are trying to slowly drive me insane.  The question is, do I wear a hat to the gym or freak out the gym population?  Stay tuned for the answer!