Post Chemo 3 checkup & perspective

I went in and met a new NP today for my follow up appointment.  She was very nice and said that I'm looking great on paper- my blood counts are recovering nicely.  We discussed my nausea and ways to combat it (I'm not drinking enough water).  I did complain to her about my weight gain (up another 2lbs this week!) but she reminded me that I'm almost done with the AC treatments and that Taxol isn't nearly as bad about the nausea.  Like everyone else, she reminded me to eat what/when I can and not worry about my weight gain.
I got home and chatted with a good friend (over the internets all the way from Amsterdam!) and she told me a story that really put things in perspective (although it wasn't her intention, it just happened to be exactly what I needed to hear).  Basically, it was about a woman dying of cancer & who'd been told that her time is very limited.  She was seeking advice on how to tell her small children (ages 4 & 6) that she'd soon be gone and ways that she could help the kids remember her.  And here I was worrying about being too fat.

So, yes, I realize that I'm being a bit butt-headed about the whole weight thing.  I'm fighting this disease, I will come out on the other end stronger and tougher, so what if a little fluffier?  So, from here on out, I'm going to try really hard not to worry so much about my weight gain (or complain about it).  In the whole scheme of things, it really doesn't matter, what really matters is still being here to enjoy my children & life.

And on to lighter things, I went yesterday to have my wig fitting.  I found one that I really like!  I don't plan on wearing it often, but am glad to have it, for special occasions.  I think it looks relatively natural and it's not nearly as itchy as I expected.

So, if I want to feel like a 'normal' person instead of a cancer patient, I'll have an option.  Just add this to the things I thought I'd never own...LOL